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How breast cancer is reshaping everything

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About this blog
By Jennifer Denbo
I wanted to start this blog so other women, family and friends could see a real perspective into the life of cancer. Not just what I am experiencing, but what others may experience or see loved ones experience themselves. I am a mom of two girls ...
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Taking It From The Top
I wanted to start this blog so other women, family and friends could see a real perspective into the life of cancer. Not just what I am experiencing, but what others may experience or see loved ones experience themselves. I am a mom of two girls (Kaylee 10, and Sophie 4) and married for 11 years this year to my husband John Marc. We live in Rolla, MO and all of my treatments will be here at Phelps County Regional Medical Center. I was diagnosed on January 16, 2013, at 5:15 p.m. A moment in time I believe the Earth stopped turning, and my heart stopped beating. Even if it was for a split second. This blog was started January 21, 2013 at 6:22 p.m. when I was ready to speak. (and when my S.I.L. Claire was ready to help with the tech stuff:) I hope you enjoy taking this journey with me. I WILL beat Breast Cancer! I did not want to turn to Google for my answers, I wanted to find my own. These are them:
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So today is Easter and it was amazing going back to my church to celebrate. I had such a great time seeing everyone and celebrating such a wonderful day:)

After church I started to feel a bit sick to my stomach and stayed in bed most of the rest of the day. My mind started taking me into tomorrow and my 2 doctors appts I have. The first is with a Gyn to get an annual exam (big fun;) and the second with my surgeon to check the lump I found. I know my gyn will give me a breast exam as well and maybe can shed some light on what the lump is and why it’s hurting. Overall tomorrow will be a shitty day I’ll just want over with .

As I sat in church today I began to cry and wasn’t sure why. Not sure if I’m just broke down from all this… or it’s just taking a toll on my mind and spirit as well as my body. This is so much to absorb all at once. Wed. will be the halfway mark of my chemo. It is #4 of #8. 2 months down, and 2 months to go. It seems like an eternity…. and that’s not quite fair:( I feel everyday like I have given enough, and I should just be able to be done… but that ‘s just not so.

One day (hopefully this summer:) I will be sitting on the beach of Hawaii blogging and saying that this journey is behind me and I am only looking forward. But for now, that seems like an eternity away.

This is by far the hardest thing I ever been through in my entire life. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy, and feel a bit jaded sometimes that it’s been laid on my door step at the age of 32. Not just for me to endure…but my husband…my kids… my parents… and so on.

My mother alone has given up so much. She has to be here every single week to help with the kids and my appointments. We would have had to hire a full time nurse/nanny to do everything she is doing. 4 months of her life devoted to taking care of me and my family….how can I ever say thank you enough? The answer… I can’t. I don’t know a single person on the planet that would have given up everything to help like she has. I hope to one day have the resources to pay my parents back in some way…. because they deserve it. Maybe it’ll give me a reason to start a fundraiser and send them somewhere nice.

Know one knows more than her the hell I live everyday. That’s gotta be worth something right?? I believe it does.

Here are some pictures before church today:)

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